This is a guest post spirit writing. Being abandoned is a tough pill to swallow and writing about this touchy subject brings perspective and understanding. What you see here has not been edited or changed, you read it as the writer received it.
It is hard to describe to someone who has always had a mother, what NOT having one is like. I guess those who are motherless too have the most understanding on this topic, yet for each and every one of us it is different. We have different triggers, different longings and while one may think that the need for a mother may dissipate over time, it is in fact quite the opposite.
This spirit writing came at a time when my 14 year old began to pull away and live with his dad. For weeks I felt anger, guilt, sadness, and decided to sit down, bring in my higher guides and write.
He is broody, this is true. But in this very way so are you. He is inner, you are outer and this is all a balancing act. You both are playing in the age-old game. The trick is not to look down or all around and definitely don’t look back. That’s the easiest way to fall. For there will be regrets galore for why did you do that? Why didn’t I do this? See, there you go already thinking of it all.
Your Life Isn’t Better Than Mine ~ Automatic Writing
This autpmatic writing came when I was feeling sorry for the mom I didn’t get to be. Sorry for getting the brunt of being a single mom, not once but twice. Why other moms got all and I so little. Wishing I’d had luxury of putting my kids on the front burner. Pure self pity. Then I felt a buzzing in my head, one that tells me to write. Here’s what came through…
I have been ‘spirit writing’ since my 20’s. This type of writing always begins the same way…I get a quiet kind of buzz in the back of my head and hear the first sentence or two. When I feel this I stop what I am doing, put pen in hand, and write. That’s the trick. Not to turn your ego or brain on. Just write, let the words flow and come together as they do. It’s a bit like getting out of your own way.
I’ve made milk kefir for years now and have learned a lot! Here’s some of my tips and tricks to help you move through the learning curve easier 🙂
This is a continuation of my milk kefir recipe. You may want to check that out.
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